In a wierd mood...

Terribly sorry I havn't been on in a wile. But now im here and I will put you all up to date...

I got married Sept. 2nd and on Sept. 4th found out i was pregnat then on Sept. 28th found out my husband was going to Iraq....

he is now over there and its so hard. Im due next month with a lil girl, i dunno if its the hormones or what but right now im so.... Blah, and today was a good day till i got home... to this big empty house.... going to bed is the hardest thing....
but my boys and my lil girl keep me going... my lil man, my lil girl and my
hubby ^_^ ...

Its hard to be strong when your strenght isnt there its hard to smiel when you want to cry... Theres times i feel so empty inside... i dont understand... getting mad over lil things i cant control, flusterd trying to keep my self so busy every day... Between him being gone and being a singel mom for awile, the pregnacy, and trying to hold down the fort wile he fights! *breath* not getting in to that bloody bowl shit... i support my man and the troops not the stupid war!!!

I started my own business, that was fun... now making it grow, thats the tricky part...

Then i feel bad for my ex- fiance' .... His poor heart was broken so bad and i want to help cause i know just how he feels cause what she is doing to him, he did to me, but i dont want to hurt him so i just cant bring my self to say "what goes around comes around"

I just hope he learns, i still love him and I want him to be happy and find some one who makes him happy and they bolth love each other and want to be together

I long for him to be home... his soft tuch, and gentel kiss... his strong arms, and beautiful green eyes. his had apon my face, his smiel when he see me...